I feel a bit drained lately. Very tired when I get up in the morning, not feeling or having the energy to do biking as much as I thought I would. I’m drained from work because my best friend quit and started a new job. I have to admit I miss her more and more, and it’s hard not to see her every day. She gave me more energy than I thought, and without her it’s like I’m a balloon with a little hole in it – just loosing a tiny bit of air each day.
I try to make arrangements with my friend only to discover I have already made arrangements with others or having to work the same weekend. I ask if he wants to listen to music and drink some beers only to find out I’m working. Another friend wants to start up the football club again – that we run together and I can only feel the stress in telling him I just don’t have the time or I don’t want too. I’m simply too drained for it. Or is it because I know I will get five alternatives of NOT going and seven problems to go with it if I tell my partner?
I worked out side for hours yesterday. I was drained and hungry. By 1800 I simply had to stop. I need energy, more energy.
The daily bewilderment 